I was feeling weak from last night’s turmoil

To stay underneath the comforter was tempting

The dark sky is threatening

with cold and heavy rains

If I stay,the swollen eyes so poor,

will just compete with the downpour.

God does not put us in situations for no reason

Last night, I wanted to hear your voice

You’re sad

because you don’t know exactly what am going through

I tell you dearest,

You wouldn’t want to know

Maybe it was just my protective instinct

I had always been like this

My beloveds’ pain is mine as well

You love me and I also do

Mine is the kind that protects

Like a Kanga to her Roo

Dearest, let me feel the pain

I pray that you won’t feel it’s unfair

Beloved you said I might not understand…

Of course I do!!!!

I had been there several times

And here I am again…

For now, I will leave it that way

You, thinking I might not understand

If only I can tell you everything…

I prayed for wisdom

And wisdom told me not to

In my own understanding

Everything is so completed complicated right now

But nothing is complicated with our sovereign God

So I chose to leave everything to His will

And wait for our sovereign God to “un–complicate” everything

Before the heavy eyes finally went to a peaceful sleep

You whispered “I love you”

That is all that matters…all that I need

I have your love….

“I was wishing that my wishes were what God wished, and if my wishes were not what God wished, I wished that I could wish that my wishes would go away, but the wishes were still there”–E. Elliot<Passion and Purity>

For the past month,

I had been looking forward to weekends

Especially Saturdays.

To be with you again,

To share our lives once more

Over a cup of tea or coffee.

Reminiscing the past,

Living the present,

And looking forward to our future together.

With all the advancements

God allowed for communication,

We’re so near yet so far.

Awhile ago,

We spoke to each other

Countless I miss yous and I love yous

Oh! How I long for that weekend!

When we can finally tell that to each other

Face to face with a warm and tight embrace.

The nights had been cold,

And restless too!

All I want is to be with you.

It had been a habit

To wake up in the middle of the cold night

After dreaming of you, there beside me.

But that was it!

Only a dream,

Only a dream.

Then it is difficult to go back to sleep,

I’l lay in my bed

Wishing, praying, hoping

That someday

I’ll sleep in the warmth of your embrace

And to be awakened by your sweat breath in my face.

After we say our prayer

Of thanksgiving to our Maker

Together we arise

I’ll prepare your favorite cup of coffee

While you’re there in my fave spot,

Waiting….

Then we will go out,

The dogs will greet us

And we will return their kisses

With arms in each other’s waist,

We look up to the sky

And be amazed by the twinkling stars

How great is the God

Who made them all

With their beauty and splendor

Lady moon was not in sight,

But our hearts know

She’s just there.

Together in silence, we will watch

As the darkness of the night

Fade into a bright new morning light.

We are still waiting…..

Waiting for HIS most beautiful

and perfect time….

This is for you nanay, oniisan.

Whew!!! This is really a toxic day and am so intoxicated!hehehe i love working nonstop don’t mention “multi-tasking” . Share ko lang nabasa ko kagabi…

Happiness is not having what you wanted
But wanting WHAT YOU HAVE NOW.

Happeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Nanay

Last night I fixed my mother’s things…

I terribly miss her

I wore her nightdress..

Took a hotmilk before going to sleep…

Two more weeks of waiting

and it will be her that I will be embracing

and it will be her who will prepare my milk

just like kindergarten days…

I looooove taking care of other people

Especially my beloveds

And am looking forward to take care of nanay

But deep inside my heart is the little Michelle

Who longs for her mother’s presence…

Caretakers need to be taken care of too! %;D

I woke up this morning with a terrible headache…didn’t feel like going to work. But I won’t feel any better at home thinking of work at the office. I don’t want my boss having difficulty when am not around. He and his wife takes good care of their staff and we want to do the same. I decided to go but before that I had the instinct to bring slippers….just in case it will rain hard. I should have listened to my instinct! It did rain very very very hard!Flooding my way! “kawawa ung black leather shoes ko ;(“ I immediately washed my feet when arrived at the office.Can you imagine me with standing in one foot and the other is in the sink! Waahhaah I felt like a gymnast this am. Good thing I have extra native slippers from Naga.

Believe it or not, it was my 1^st time to experience flood here in manila.(as in yung lumusong).God had been very gracious to me and He made me experience it on the eve of my 10^th year here in Manila!

No regrets! The whole morning was productive and our boss, kindhearted as he always is, sent us home early. … right now how I pray my friends (who are having unreasonable hardtimes because of their bosses) do have a boss like ours…. One of my greatest blessing!

Bye everyone….am looking forward to see the river beside my house widen its territory.

I love rain and the rain Maker… my BIG BOSS

Ni sa hinagap di man lang sumagi

Na siya’y makakarating sa malayong lupain na sa iyo’y kumandili

Ni wala man lang babala sa unang sulyap at pagdadaop ng mga palad…

Subalit, makaraan ang ilang saglit….

ng dahil sa musikang di naman akma sa tema

nabulabog ang pusong namimighati para sa iba…

Walang patawad…sikmura niya’y gustong bumaligtad

Animo’y batang paslit

Na gustong kumanlong sa kandungan ni Ama

Nagulat, nalito, at nanghina…

Siya ngayo’y nagtatanong….

Panginoon, ano po ito?

Kahiwagaan ng lahat

Di maarok ng kanyang dunong

Subalit nandoon ang pagtitiwala

Na sila ay nasa Iyong mga palad………..

i just read this from my boss’ friendster bulletin:

“There was a one hour interview on CNBC
with Warren Buffet, the second
richest man who has donated $31 billion
to charity.

Here are some very interesting aspects
of his life:

1. He bought his first share at age 11
and he now regrets that he
started too late!

2. He bought a small farm at age 14
with savings from delivering
newspapers.

3. He still lives in the same small
3-bedroom house in mid-town Omaha
, that he bought after he got married 50
years ago. He says that he has
everything he needs in that house. His
house does not have a wall or a
fence.

4. He drives his own car everywhere and
does not have a driver or
security people around him.

5. He never travels by private jet,
although he owns the world’s
largest private jet company.

6. His company, Berkshire Hathaway,
owns 63 companies.

He writes only one letter each year to
the CEOs of these companies,
giving them goals for the year. He never
holds meetings or calls them on
a regular basis.
He has given his CEO’s only two rules.
Rule number 1: do not lose any of
your share holder’s money. Rule number
2: Do not forget rule number 1.

7. He does not socialize with the high
society crowd. His past time
after he gets home is to make himself
some pop corn and watch Television.

8. Bill Gates, the world’s richest man
met him for the first time only
5 years ago. Bill Gates did not think he
had anything in common with
Warren Buffet. So he had scheduled his
meeting only for half hour. But
when Gates met him, the meeting lasted
for ten hours and Bill Gates
became a devotee of Warren Buffet.

9. Warren Buffet does not carry a cell
phone, nor has a computer on
his desk.

His advice to young people: “Stay
away from credit cards and invest
in yourself and Remember:
A. Money doesn’t create man but it
is the man who created money.
B. Live your life as simple as you are.
C. Don’t do what others say, just
listen to them, but do what you
feel good.
D. Don’t go on brand name; just wear
those things in which u feel
comfortable.
E. Don’t waste your money on
unnecessary things; just spend on them
who really in need rather.
F. After all it’s your life then why
give chance to others to rule
our life.”

Courtesy of Jerome Pang”

It seems that i’ll be spending time reading Warren Buffet’s biography.
I am thankful for people like him who is not attached to their material possesions.

What really raised my interest was this post from:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/americas/5197082.stm

“In June 2006, Warren Buffett announced plans to contribute approximately 10 million Berkshire Hathaway Class B shares to the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation (worth approximately USD 30.7 billion as of June 23 2006;”

My first encounter with the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation is in my HIV/AIDS email account. It’s been quite a time that i “set aside” my “interest” in AIDS. But did I? really? As of now my heart is set on some issues very much related to AIDS. (i just realized that)  Issues that seem so far to it, but left unattended could lead to it. Prevention is better than cure right?

I am glad to know that the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation has donated a total of US$287 million to various HIV/AIDS researchers. According to BBC news” The money was split between sixteen different research teams across the world, on the condition that they share their findings with one another.”

My heart is grieving/in a turmoil these past few days, there’s so much in it but i just can’t find the words to express it/pray for it.

Thank you Lord for the Holy Spirit who intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.

Romans 8:25-28 (New International Version)

25But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

 26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. 27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will. 28And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

A lot of bloggable things happened in between my last post and this post (I promise to post the in between as soon as I finish that entry) &;D

Last night I watched Mr. Bean’s Holiday with tita Che. I don’t really like to watch the movie but I promised to treat her with my MTRCB deputy card. Though I didn’t like it, i tried to focus what God wants me to learn from the movie and here it is:

I admire how focused Mr. Bean was in reaching his goal – The Beach in Cannes. He did but while reaching for his goal, he was a nuisance to people he met along the way…

Until now, i am still contemplating how my actions affect other people while i run for my goals in life.

I do pray that I am a blessing and if it’s the other way around hope I will be able to realize it and do something to make up for it…

The Lord never fails to support my realizations in life with HIS WORD (though the best thing is still DRAWING OUT REALIZATIONS FROM HIS WORD

Today’s post in

Proverbs 31 Ministries Daily Devotions

is about running the race.

Right now am physically tired in running my race…but the Lord’s grace is sufficient for me…fuelling my passion…and when the embers are about to die He shows His faithfulness by sending people to fan the dying embers…

Acts 20:24 (New Living Translation)

But my life is worth nothing to me unless I use it for finishing the work assigned me by the Lord Jesus—the work of telling others the Good News about the wonderful grace of God.

Hebrews 12:1-3 (New Living Translation)

1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.^[a] Because of the joy^[b] awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. 3 Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people;^[c] then you won’t become weary and give up.

I just received a phonecall from my mom…. and she’s not feeling well.

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O Lord, may you touch her with your healing hands and grant her longer life to enjoy your love (sounds selfish of me….she would fully enjoy your love and presence once she gets Home.. I humbly plead my Lord.Not yet! Not yet!